Rollercoaster

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I just can’t be
I just can’t be
I just can’t be

Thinking
Thinking
Thinking

Rollercoaster
Rollercoaster
No tracks
Rollercoaster

On nothing
Flying
Dropping

You
Me

I am 

Not
Organized
Enough
For
This

Boring
Boredom
Bore
Am I one
No
There
Is 
A
Difference
Between
Being
Bored
&
Being
Boring
Why
Did
You
Have
To
Do
This
To
Me

To myself again. You took the train. I waited for 2 ½ hours at the station in the cold pouring rain.

He
Hurt
Her
Again

She
Hurt
Her
Again

& again
& again

I’m feeling sensitive because I like to repeat
myself
Repeat words a lot
Kind of boring words
Words a lot

A lot
A fucking lot

But we could talk about anything. I’m fun like that.

I promise
I promise
I promise
I promise
Not
To
Die
A
Lot

Because
You
Can’t
Make
That
Same
Promise
To me

Can
You?
Can
You?
Can
You?

Cans & jars. I can’t cook these days, so I ate beans from a can & cut my hand. How many times have I done that. Right?

Right now
That emotion
Won’t let
Me go
So what
So what
So
I’m sorry
I don’t

Have
Any
Better
Words
Than
This

Right now

It’s better to be boring than to be bored somehow
Oops
I just
Contradicted
Myself
Somehow

Solder
Me back
Together
Again

You said you know how to do that right? Please help me to get all my mettle back.

Cry
Cry
Cry
Cry
Another song
Cry
Cry
Cry
Cry
Another
Lie
Another
Song
Another
Try

I won’t jump
Off the edge
Of the world
Tonight
The planet won’t fall out of
The sky tonight
I promise
I promise
I promise

You

Star

© Niliema Karkhanis


Authour’s note: a poem for day 19 of a month of poetry 2021.


Featured image by Milad B. Fakurian from Unsplash


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