Sometimes


Cn: implied (nothing graphic or explicit) ipv (intimate partner violence). A poetic discussion & reflection. No direct discussion of violence.


Sometimes
I can’t forget
What it felt like
To love you

It was beautiful
& it was scary too

I wonder if
Sometimes you
Remember what
It was like
To love me too

Or if you did at all
If that was love
Or something
Superficial
As it felt so

Sometimes
I remember
That threats
Are not love

Sometimes
I forget that
& believe
Something
Else

Time is space
& also a place
Where love goes
& resets itself

There a pace
Sets itself
To belief
In better days

Knowing the ways
That care
Is what’s
Giving & safe

Sometimes
I’m certain
That love is
Definitively
Not a curtain
Of obfuscation

To know it
Is goodness
Not a false
Sense of
Self

I know that
I loved you
With all of
My heart

& sometimes
That’s enough
To be aware
That living

Is about giving
& not about getting

Sometimes
I’m reminded
That when
It’s said that
It’s better to have
Loved & lost
Than never
To have loved
At all
No matter
How broken

This aphorism
That connection
Is recognition
& we can’t control
Outcomes

Yet I tend to
Believe that
What’s lost
On someone
Who lets
Love lose
Is concern
For another’s
Depth
& well-being

Sometimes
I know this
What it is
More than
Anything
Else

Sometimes
Reality
Makes me
Question
Myself

& question
What love is
More than
Anything else

© Niliema Karkhanis


Authour’s note: poem 20/30 for a month of poetry 2021


For the Word of the Day Challenge prompt ‘sometimes’


Featured image by Jr Korpa from Unsplash


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