Hand writings

I still think about it

But it just doesn’t mean much

Anymore

~○~

I got my songs back

That was important

~○~

What is

A singer

After all

Without

Their

Songs

Lyrical me

I shared my art

With you

In dances

& bird

Melodies

~○~

Have you lost

The centre

Of you

The core

The fire

Of you

The ignited

Elements

Of you

I ask 

Because

To write

you know

Like that

Like how

We aspire to

You do

Need

Those things

You need to

Go there

Even if only

Sometimes

You know

When you can

~○~

& I never knew

& I never knew

& I never knew

~○~

Sometimes

When I think

About you

I still feel

Such a deep

Reaction from

Where those

Wounds reside

Otherwise mostly

I’m to terms with it

That stark feeling

Of overcoming

Not quite relief

But resigned

Slightly sad

Acceptance

Of fate

~○~

I got my words back

I was worried about that

~○~

My poetry is 

All grown up

Now & it

Is on its

Way &

In its

Life

~○~

At that point

It was all messy

Hand writings

New beginnings

Now

My words have

Changed

Sharper

Instilled

After you

Loved them

Awhile

& after

I thought

I’d lost them to you

& like coming back from

The brink of death

I live my songs now as if

They’re having

Their last breath

~○~

I never wish trauma

Upon anyone

As any kind of

Lesson because

That’s not

How things

Work

Though

Such loss

In me

Bleeds

All this

The words

Can hardly

Be denied

~○~

New beginnings

Of things feared gone

In small deaths

Along the way

They take on

Lives themselves

As I continue

Leaving mine

Words

Lost

Returning

Take on

A life of

Their own

& survive

© Niliema Karkhanis

Featured photo by Paweł Czerwiński from Unsplash

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